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My new babies! (Taken with Instagram)

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Toothbrush cleaned left, casually filthy right. (Taken with Instagram)

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On a side note, whilst filtering through trying to find that last photo, I came across this.
It makes me sick to think how much weight I had lost and how little appreciated myself at the time. Why does it always take a massive amount of weight gain to become aware of your initial success?
I’ve thrown away 6 months of my life, and am throwing away a further 6 now.
Getting back to this will be harder than anything I’ve ever done before, but it’s come to my realisation that a whole load of really big things have happened in 2012 and I have not taken the time to think, to process, and especially, to deal with all of these. Alas, they have piled up and I have worked my way around it all… and made the food industry that little bit wealthier.
It’s easier said than done, but I’m hoping that if I say it enough it’ll eventually get done. Wish me luck.

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So, I posted this picture on facebook again the other day and had a bit of a rant on Black Milk’s page.
“I bought my first pair of Black Milk leggings in January 2012 to celebrate the fact that I had lost 140lbs in 6 months. I was so proud of myself for finally being able to wear to wear clothes that weren’t plus sized, especially for being able to get into Mediums. Since then, I’ve been diagnosed with epilepsy and put on medication that I feel has changed me greatly, I don’t want to go into too much detail and I’m not looking for a pity party but I feel this has played a pretty big part in my weight creeping back on. I’m not trying to make excuses as I know I’m the only one to blame for the weight gain, but having gained 80 lbs in the last five months I have reached the point where enough is enough. I’ve continued to feed my BM addiciton and have purchased many more pieces these past few months - although I’ve not allowed myself to buy anything bigger than a Medium. It has now reached a point where I can no longer squeeze myself into these, yet I keep on buying new pairs and every time a new parcel arrives I get so upset with myself for letting myself to get back to this size. I know what I need to do, but I’ve really been struggling to motivate myself so I’ve felt the need to post this here as a form of promise to myself that I’m going to finally kick start my weight loss again and be able to wear all my beautiful BM again.
I’d like to thank you BM for continuing to produce such great clothing, creating a friendly community and making girls worldwide feel like absolute bosses. ♥”
Now that’s all well and dandy, but it’s time I actually did something about it! Without trying to sound like your typical lazy lard-arse, it is so difficult. So, in a frail attempt to get myself going, I figured I might as well post it here too. In a sense, I’d like to think I’ve said it on as many platforms as I can so that I feel the need to stick to it for a change because I’ve spent about 3 months now going “this is it, I’m stopping” and it just hasn’t happened.

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My hair is fading and I don’t know what I want to do with it now… (Taken with Instagram)

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Made these for my cousin for her birthday :) (Taken with Instagram